Amber,

so they say the world is not about you but always about the people around you.
wut they say, wut they wants & desire is wut we r here for.
it have been a full and longest semester ever. Ones that you wont forget. tragic yet remindfull. A scream in the ears that just keeps on echoing in your hollow head straight to each of your braincells projecting nothing but bad shapes and emages.

As im so terrible living by myself and getting misrable with the load of shit that got to be done fast plus none of anything that could motivate me to do my work better, i decided to move. living my dearest purple small room into a big and full facilities house. it was feb 09, i paid my 1st rent. livin with a classmate plus a lacturer somewhat give me a sense of progression and safety for my assignments. they were cool,warm hearted people that i suppose to guide me trough the ups n downs of a student life.

I was welcomed with opened arms that day, Stephie (classmate, suppose to be best friend) gave her sweetest words that i dont have to work alone anymore, go to classes together n bla bla.. me as a trusted friend sees the goodness in her heart n walk my way to now i shall name it 'hell on earth'. for the 1st two months i was treated like a great guest although i notice a bit of a changes in stephie. the lacturer helps with my assignments n we share good gossips together.

But little that i know,they r wolf in sheeps skin. they talks behind me. Stephie is getting jealous of me. the lacturer talks bad things about me to other lacturer making all of them having doubts on me. i have little to say for myself. im just a small mouse, can never defeat a fire breathing dragon. i dont know wut went wrong in our friendship. i dont know wut makes her told me off like that. i was so honest n true in the relationship. while i was the one who always throwing a feast,she never even give me a crumb of her bread. it is so unfair.

well, i guess i wont make the same mistake again. no one can be trusted then your own loved ones. like my bf..hahah! i miss him..he is 400 km away. i hope he is fine. i am in my semester's break. working part time as a salesgirl. that all 4 now..